Anger management...hmm,who needs it!?!
I know who "I do"!! You might be saying "Jesus got angry, it says so in the bible(John 2:13-17)"!! I know He did,but His anger was a righteous anger. He was zealous about God's house. My anger is the total opposite. I'm basically called a foolish person in the bible.(Proverbs 12:16 & 14:16) I keep things that bother me in,so it becomes a ticking time bomb. It goes from bothering me to making me angry. Something was bothering me on Monday and it started stirring anger in,but instead of talking to my husband about it,I kept it in. I got home from work and I answered 1 question and just didn't speak to him for the rest of the night. I went to bed bothered and angry. God tells us not to go to bed angry.(Ephesians 4:26-27) You might be asking yourself,why not just tell him how you feel.My hubby isn't saved yet and well I didn't want things to get ugly. The following day I felt bad, so I texted him I love you. Thinking I had let it go,today I woke up,prayed and started getting ready for work. Elyjah and I get in the car and we drive off. That's when Elyjah says " it's picture day"...I need my baseball uniform. That was the straw that broke the camels back. I started screaming like a banshee.Elyjah just kept quiet and his eyes on me. To make matters worse,my road rage kicked in too.This is a SIN that has dominion over me.SIN,you say YES SIN is what I said. Galatians 5:19-20 says the act of a sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality,impurity and debauchery;idolatry and witchcraft;hatred,discord,jealousy,fits of rage,selfish ambition,dissensions,factions. You see, having a fit of rage leads to a discord and then hatred. I'm guilty of all three.Once on the Gratigny,boom it hit me...my pastors Sundays preaching and illustration.I was like wow my anger and attitude reigns over me not the other way around. I mean I've known I had this issue...it's no surprise!! Plus I've always said yea,I need to work on this. That's where the problem lays,I said "I need"... not Lord help me with this issue. I've tried changing myself and umm as you read...it hasn't worked. I should of been asking God to transform me. So,as I kept driving,I decided to talk to my Daddy and asked Him to help me with my anger and to transform me. (Colossians 3:8) As,I was talking to my God, I look at the sky and see a cloud in the shape of a dove. I,felt as God was telling me..."don't worry, I got your back" ! I,no longer want to be a fool and speak reckless words. I want to be wise and use my words to edify and heal!! Ephesians 4:29-32: Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouth, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs,that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God,with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness,rage and anger,brawling and slander,along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another,forgiving each other,just as Christ God forgave you. I declared that today will be the last time I act out of anger and be a fool. Am I saying that I will never get angry again...no,I'm not I'm human..so not perfect but the God in me is. I know that with Him my transformation is not impossible but possible. So,with that said"instead of acting like a fool,I will use wisdom". I will wait to be clam before I act and simply talk about it.
If you too are dealing with anger issues..take it to Jesus. Let Him be the one to transform you!! Trust me trying to change yourself, will only make it worse!!
Lord, I ask that whoever is dealing with this same issue that You help them. Begin,the process of their transformation...like You have started with me. In Jesus name, I declare it done.
Be blessed and I'm sorry it's long.
