It's been awhile since I wrote...I've gone through some stuff in the last few months. I'm still standing cause God is AWESOME!!
Where do I begin!?! I love my boys and I know that God has blessed me with them. I also know that they are not really mine but that they belong to God. God just let me borrow two of His angels...to raise the right way. Before, I got married...I was a single mother. Trust me just cause I'm married it doesn't make the load any less lighter..but it helps to have my husband. As most knows...I'm a mother of a special needs child. My load isn't an easy one to carry...especially when all you desire is for that child to be what society considers normal. You,might look at me and see me smiling and laughing but underneath it all...I'm secretly crying!!My Devyn might seem like a healthy child in your eyes and when he throws his tantrums...you might even think he's just spoiled and a bad kid. You might even be thinking she's an awful mother and can't control her kid. That's okay...I'm constantly judged!! I invite you to put on my stilettos and walk a mile in them...let's see how far you can walk in them!!Devyn was diagnosed with epilepsy...2 months before his 3rd birthday. That's when everything took a downward spiral!! He would have anywhere from 60-100 seizures a day. He has both tonic-clonic seizures and atonic seizures. The atonic seizures were the ones that he will have 60-100 a day...this led to really bad scarring of his brain. He also has ADHD,he's hard of hearing and has Asperger syndrome. Asperger's syndrome or Asperger disorder, is an autism spectrum disorder (ASD) that is characterized by significant difficulties in social interaction, alongside restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior and interests. His behavior is very aggressive and angry...that's the side of autism he ended up on. It's not easy and at times I just wanna give up and run!! We have entered a stage...that I desired to never come. He hit puberty and it's not easy to explain to a 14 year old who has the mentality of a six year that his body is changing...He gets pimples and I'm the one who applies the pimple medicine on his face. Being in middle school...he sees the regular kids doing things and thinks it's okay. I wish I can put him in a bubble but I can't. It's not an easy road to walk!!I'm a no nonsense mom and I do correct him...just because he's a special needs child doesn't mean he can get away with doing wrong. God tells me in His word that I need to discipline my children.
matter the storms or waves that try to knock me
down!! He is my stronghold!!
Where do I begin!?! I love my boys and I know that God has blessed me with them. I also know that they are not really mine but that they belong to God. God just let me borrow two of His angels...to raise the right way. Before, I got married...I was a single mother. Trust me just cause I'm married it doesn't make the load any less lighter..but it helps to have my husband. As most knows...I'm a mother of a special needs child. My load isn't an easy one to carry...especially when all you desire is for that child to be what society considers normal. You,might look at me and see me smiling and laughing but underneath it all...I'm secretly crying!!My Devyn might seem like a healthy child in your eyes and when he throws his tantrums...you might even think he's just spoiled and a bad kid. You might even be thinking she's an awful mother and can't control her kid. That's okay...I'm constantly judged!! I invite you to put on my stilettos and walk a mile in them...let's see how far you can walk in them!!Devyn was diagnosed with epilepsy...2 months before his 3rd birthday. That's when everything took a downward spiral!! He would have anywhere from 60-100 seizures a day. He has both tonic-clonic seizures and atonic seizures. The atonic seizures were the ones that he will have 60-100 a day...this led to really bad scarring of his brain. He also has ADHD,he's hard of hearing and has Asperger syndrome. Asperger's syndrome or Asperger disorder, is an autism spectrum disorder (ASD) that is characterized by significant difficulties in social interaction, alongside restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior and interests. His behavior is very aggressive and angry...that's the side of autism he ended up on. It's not easy and at times I just wanna give up and run!! We have entered a stage...that I desired to never come. He hit puberty and it's not easy to explain to a 14 year old who has the mentality of a six year that his body is changing...He gets pimples and I'm the one who applies the pimple medicine on his face. Being in middle school...he sees the regular kids doing things and thinks it's okay. I wish I can put him in a bubble but I can't. It's not an easy road to walk!!I'm a no nonsense mom and I do correct him...just because he's a special needs child doesn't mean he can get away with doing wrong. God tells me in His word that I need to discipline my children.
Whoever spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is diligent to discipline him.
I'm not saying go crazy and beat your child...I'm saying correct them and punish them. I get overwhelmed at times,especially when it's the same thing over and over again that I'm correcting him about. He's an awesome student straight A's and B's and an awesome athlete. But,his behavior is his downfall. I'm well aware that this is something I might have to deal with as he becomes an adult, I know that Devyn might be living with me when he becomes an adult and I'm at peace that my husband accepts that as well. I say "might" because I serve a God who is still in the miracle business!! He's the God who tells me in Isaiah 53 that by His stripes,we are healed!!Devyn,is an awesome kid and I am blessed to have him in my life. At times...it becomes to much for me to handle and I just want to give up like I stated before. But,I don't!! I refuse to do to my kids what was done to my sister and I. So, I rest knowing that...even though I cry in the silence of my room and my heart breaks...GOD IS MY ROCK!! No, matter what waves come to knock me down...I lay down on MY ROCK AND REST!! God has never left me nor has he forsaken me and only He gives me the strength to carry on!!! I am proud to say I struggle and that I'm weak!!! His word tells me(read below)
I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"
2 Corinthians 12:9-But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me
God bless you all who read this!! I have one request...please keep us in your prayers.
Thank you!! I didn't write this so anyone can feel sorry for me...I wrote this to encourage single parents and parents to not give up on their child or children...instead deposit them into Gods hands,pray for them,pray with them,rebuke the ugly,encourage the good,speak and declare positive and great things over them and let go of all negativity!!! Nothing is impossible for the King of Kings!! Be blessed!!
The Lord is my rock..in Him,I find rest!! No
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Do not withhold discipline from a child; if you strike him with a rod, he will not die. If you strike him with the rod, you will save his soul from Sheol. My son, if your heart is wise, my heart too will be glad.
Do not withhold discipline from a child; if you strike him with a rod, he will not die. If you strike him with the rod, you will save his soul from Sheol. My son, if your heart is wise, my heart too will be glad.
Proverbs 29:15
The rod and reproof give wisdom, but a child left to himself brings shame to his mother.
The rod and reproof give wisdom, but a child left to himself brings shame to his mother.
I'm not saying go crazy and beat your child...I'm saying correct them and punish them. I get overwhelmed at times,especially when it's the same thing over and over again that I'm correcting him about. He's an awesome student straight A's and B's and an awesome athlete. But,his behavior is his downfall. I'm well aware that this is something I might have to deal with as he becomes an adult, I know that Devyn might be living with me when he becomes an adult and I'm at peace that my husband accepts that as well. I say "might" because I serve a God who is still in the miracle business!! He's the God who tells me in Isaiah 53 that by His stripes,we are healed!!Devyn,is an awesome kid and I am blessed to have him in my life. At times...it becomes to much for me to handle and I just want to give up like I stated before. But,I don't!! I refuse to do to my kids what was done to my sister and I. So, I rest knowing that...even though I cry in the silence of my room and my heart breaks...GOD IS MY ROCK!! No, matter what waves come to knock me down...I lay down on MY ROCK AND REST!! God has never left me nor has he forsaken me and only He gives me the strength to carry on!!! I am proud to say I struggle and that I'm weak!!! His word tells me(read below)
I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"
Philippians 4:13
2 Corinthians 12:9-But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me
God bless you all who read this!! I have one request...please keep us in your prayers.
Thank you!! I didn't write this so anyone can feel sorry for me...I wrote this to encourage single parents and parents to not give up on their child or children...instead deposit them into Gods hands,pray for them,pray with them,rebuke the ugly,encourage the good,speak and declare positive and great things over them and let go of all negativity!!! Nothing is impossible for the King of Kings!! Be blessed!!
matter the storms or waves that try to knock me
down!! He is my stronghold!!
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